Looking at 25

Hello Joyflakes,

Each year, at new years, people make resolutions.  Things that they want to do in that year. Little promises that they make to themselves in hopes of bettering themselves.  I have always tended to do this around my birthday because it is close to new years but it is the time that I really start to think about the past year and reflect on what I did or didn't do that year.

Last year at this time I was planning all of the amazing things I was going to do and promising myself that I would make so many changes in my 24th year.  I was picturing the person I would be as I looked forward to my 25th birthday and I was sure that I would be much more grown up and ready to take on the world.  I would save a ton of money, write on my blog everyday, start working towards blogging being a bigger and bigger part of my life (internet stardom was just around the corner, I was sure!) and couldn't wait to turn the page to my new, adult life in Iowa City.  The funny thing about making promises to yourself and all of the people who may or may not be reading your blog, is that those promises can all easily be blown up by the very thing that you are trying your best to change. Life.

So when new years eve started to creep up, and everyone started making their yearly resolutions to "lose weight" or "save money" or "try new things", I decided not to promise myself anything at all this year.  I thought about all of the things that I had promised myself in the past, and realized that I had never in my life stuck to a resolution.  Life had always gotten in the way.

The funny thing about not making a resolution is that I suddenly started to do those things I normally would have pressured myself into doing without even thinking about it.  I started working out more and more because of the way it made me feel emotionally and physically, not because I felt like I was letting down my readers and myself if I didn't.  I added an automatic transfer to my savings account not because I had decided "I must save 20% of each paycheck or I'm not a real adult" but because I decided that I wanted to be able to help myself out rather than asking for it if something horrible happened (like having my car towed, or needing to go to the hospital unexpectedly).  I started a reading challenge with the girl cousins/siblings I have that are close in age to me so that we could stay connected and have the opportunity to read for fun (even some of my co-workers joined in!)

Each of these things, would make an awesome resolution, but without the pressure of having to keep the promise I had made to myself, they became fun things rather than tedious, things hanging over my head. So this year, I have no resolutions. No promises to myself for the year other than to do things that make me a happier, more fulfilled person.  If at some point, one of these things doesn't make me happy anymore? I don't have to feel bad about it, I just have to redirect my path to something that does.

All in all, I feel like its a pretty good way to start out my 25th year and a good attitude to start off a new year with.  How about you? How do you feel about yearly resolutions? Let me know in the comments below :)

Until next time!