Dream Big

Hello Joyflakes!

With all of the huge changes that have been happening in my family these last few weeks, I've been thinking a lot about hopes and dreams.  If you know me, you know that I often change my mind about about who I want to be and what I want to do so it shouldn't be surprising that my hopes and dreams change regularly.

When I was little I wanted to be a scientist.  I wanted to be a marine biologist to be exact, because I wanted to discover something new and completely untouched.  The ocean has zillions of places to discover and and it's vastness is as astounding as space yet it is to me, much more tangible.

Science is meant to be touched apparently

Seashore baby

When I was in junior high I wanted to be an artist.  I wanted to move to somewhere fabulous and do nothing but drink coffee or tea, paint and take pictures of my fantastic friends.

Making beautiful artwork

In high school, my loves of science and photography became a love of digital microscopy.  I wanted nothing more than to stare through the lens of a microscope at all of the things that are too tiny to be seen and photograph them in startling colors.  I wanted to show the beauty of a world that's around us all the time and is never seen.

Bubbles are amazing...

I also became very involved in music and dance.  I was convinced that if my life as a fabulous microorganism photographer didn't work, I would make it as a dancer or singer.

In college I wanted to be lots of things.  I wanted to be an artist until I had to deal with art professors (they're all psycho), a science teacher until I had to sit through bio lectures and pass chemistry, a writer, a singer, and a historian.

All of these things were fantastic options for careers and I got close to actually doing some of them.  But for some reason, I just couldn't find anything that I really loved enough to let go of everything else.  I think that's the thing about being a dreamer.  There's always something else on the horizon and it's hard to stop dreaming.

Now that I'm not is school anymore and working full time in a job that a actually love, I've caught myself wondering if my days as a bohemian dreamer are over.  I could easily see myself spending the next decades of my life doing just what I'm doing now.  I can see myself meeting someone and raising a family in the same amazing town that I grew up in.  That's something I have never thought I would say but as unexpected as it its, there's a great deal of comfort in it.  Enrolling my children in dance classes or watching them kick butt at sports in the same places I danced and watched my friends play sports has a charm to it that I never thought I would find.

Those thoughts are almost always immediately followed by sheer panic.  That life sounds wonderful and comfortable but what about all of the things I've wanted to do throughout my life?!  If I'm settled with kids, when will I have time to hike through the mountains of Scotland, ski in the Swiss Alps, drink wine in France, gaze at byzantine mosaics, eat pasta in Italy, drink a guinness in Ireland, go shopping in London or walk through the halls and gardens of an English castle?!

Shades on and obvi so ready for tea with the queen.

For the time being, I'm incredibly happy with my life and I'm sure that I will be for some time.  All that being said, my bucket list is long and always growing and that is never going to change so here is my hope for all of you.  I hope you dream big and NEVER get too comfortable.